Ruby ♥

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If, and only if...

If, you can feel my love.. I would love to ask you, to show me, is my love worth it, for you. Can you feel my love, that i gave you.. by the wind, the light, the air you breath, every steps you walk, every night and day, and... every second. I miss you...

If, you love me... Then why does it hurt. So much. Why did you hurt me so bad. Promises are buried. I can't barely heal the wound. I can't. Never. I did try my best, the best of all. Why can't you see every good deeds in me. I am blind, blind to be fooled in this love. This so called "love-cracked" are currently, hunting me down. I am sorry. I'm not perfect, not pretty enough, not enough to fulfill everything... Hmm... I miss you...

If... I could turn back time. I shouldn't have accept your love at the first place. I should have let you, to choose your own path. And, my own path.. This would not have happened then. I'm sorry. Took all of this pictures while... you're gone. While I am talking to myself. It's a fake smile you can tell. I am alone. And... I miss you...

If... I am there, exist in your wounded heart. And passing by your day-dreaming time... Please, think of me saying "I Love You..." Even for just one second,is enough for me... At least, I am there. Still there. I am grateful, to know you, to love you, to have a beautiful-pain relationship in between. I miss you... 

Tc. Xxx.

Randomness.

 

So ouch. Having this bless and blast day in hospital. Did the Ultrasound and everything, Kidneys are having lil problem, (╥﹏╥) Alhamdulillah. Am healing :]

 

Bear given from someone. Thanks for this birthday present. hehe ^^ Setiap masa ada dekat sebelah :]

 

Balls from Kyuhyun and Donghae during SuShow 3 in Malaysia. Me grabbed em real nice you know :p

Finally. No caption. Real random. Haha.

Thanks to someone.

Ehem. Assalamualaikum. I baru je nak update about my new entry, memandangkan last entry pun dah lamee. And why  do i stay silent for so long? Final exam lah. Final exam yang boleh dikira macam nak pecah otak. This semester i have 1 subject that is 4.00 credit hour. Tho setiap sem pun ada kan, but still. That one yg paling tough. And yeah, I have Construction Law, Building Services. Bersyukur dah lepas ohh T.T And back to the title of thanks to someone. yeup. this person always help me, comforts me up when im down, give me the way whenever i cant really think straight when i'm in such depressed situation. Always give me such useful advice. Sampai rasa macam  sgt lah kecil in this world ._.

Below ni are some of the advice. Yg lain i simpan dalam otak shj k? :)

"Be strong, perempuan dicipta utk menjadi tulang rusuk lelaki. There must be a guy out there yg fits with you, tgh mencari tulang rusuk dia :p :)" 

"Janganlah menangis buz, air mata perempuan tu utk mengatasi beban hidup. But perempuan still can smiles even tgh suffer. Thats why perempuan is created utk lelaki"

"I know that every girl, they're strong. Like you do. They give unconditional love"

"Baz, you ni matured sangat lahhhh. The way you think mmg matured gilah ah. I can say your bf is lucky to have someone like you, unfortunately he doesn't know how to show some feedback about it."

Whenever i cried so bad, cant even breath, n then u saw all my tweets, then after few minutes.. there'll be one new mention to me. from you. N yeah conversation get along to this blackberry messenger. You gave me such beautiful advice..

"Pergi ambil wudhuk, then solat.. Lepastu mengaji" 

You told me, to control my emotion instead of "campak my blackberry to the wall" sampai tetanggal my cover tu. patah... T.T battery smpai terkeluar. hmm. Thanks to you now, i do know how to control my over-sadness feeling. To control my emotions, to control all of this stressful situation. You always remind me, not to forget.. about Allah. to Him we ask, we pray. 

i did told you kan, "stop predicting future, you'll end up hurting your own feelings." 

you reply "buz, kenapa semua benda buz cakap betul :("

Plus, i did told you, how amaze i am of seeing your attitude on chasing that one person. Though, your're being put at the 2nd place, of the intention on forgetting the old EX. Not to that, you sggup lagi tunggu, tho dia dah dumped you soooo many times. I salute you. Serious. Kalau i dapat guy perangai mcm yang tertera, MasyaAllah.. Rezeki from Allah. Too many advice yg you bg dekat i, i pun bagi dekat you.. smpai u pggl i Dr.Love? heh heh heh. U said, "no hesitation eh after this!" regarding on myself yang selalu simpan cerita sampai stress boleh gila -.-" didnt know knowing you was the best thing, best ear-lending friend forebah. ^^ Gud Luck on the upcoming results. You kan dapat Dean List last sem. So i tak perlu risau. hehehe. even study week pun u dah start study. i? golek golek dekat rumah ni. hehehe Thanks yeah. btw, banyak cerita you terkantoi kan. HAHAHA. ok, i simpan. ngeh ngeh. Lotsa love. ur new QS's friend. Buz.

Till we meet again :']

I'll remember everything. From the firstttt text yg dulu. zaman sebelum SPM till now. the way you text me. They way you talk to me. zaman dating naik ktm, heheh sampai lah amek lesen keweta n naik keweta! no more ktm dah lepas tu~ n then kua pagi balik malam, sedihnyaaa.... am sorry, sbb hanta text yg slalu marah2, n then garang like u said. tp tu sbb, hmm sbb syg lah kan, tak syg buat apa nak marah . lately ni, kita stress tau. :// then thats y... end up, mcm ni.

 

jangan wisau, your bear yg besaaaa tu. org jaga elok elok. hehe just like u said "anggaplah itu kenangan" :') manyak lagi gamba senanya~ tapi tapi, hmm.. semoga berjaya in ur future. kita akan doakan utk awak! :') thanks fr the memorable 1year 4months and 4days. i'll miss you. even now i am missing yoou. setiap masa. but, i can do nothing, :'// Tc. ooox!

QS Grand Night Dinner =]

Assalamualaikum :]
My new entry kali ni~ about dinner! yeayy! dinner! *tgn di dada mata ke atas -..- ahaha :p bukan apa, sebab nama je dinner, tapi kami AJK tak makan lgsung! tak dpt makan at all T.T sbb buat kerja. i was on the stage for the entire night, turun stage kejap pun sbb pegi dkt meja bestie, curik ayaq! penat woaa. kaki ketaq habeh naik turun naik turun stage. jadi penyampai semua gift =/ takpe, yg penting i did enjoy the grand night. tp dari lubuk hati, jelas mengatakan. tak akan jadi lagi dah ajk utk dinner or big event after this. penat nya tak terhingga. nak melayan part 6 punya kerenah lagi. aiyak *tepek dahi! and to my junior, ceh ceh. padahal umur same je :p cume dorg masuk 1 sem lambat! selamat menempuhi final exam! work below, excavate tu sume senang je jika nak di compare dgn part two. baru sedar part 1 dlu sng, padahal dlu tk paham apa bila belajar. adeh adeh. and gmba memang beratus! tapi! walaupun camera tu kepunyaan saya, saya tak pegang pun tau the whole night! bfore pergi tu je pegang kejap. huaaaa! buat kerja punya pasal. T.T segala handbag, purse, hp diserahkan kepada syafiq,ana n d gang. sedih kan. ni pun kutep gmba yg ada saya je lah :p muahaha so, talk no more. pictures!

 

tag dinner crew tu melindungi my long necklace! uwaargh!

 

 

this is it, my manager! muahaha. yg jaga camera saya malam tu :p tenkiu abe. 

  

tenkiu to my fani fanot, awak tgkap kan gmba kita bebanyak! ^^

  

last of everything, this is it. the fashion. the accessories yang saya pakai. not much, the lesser the prettier. ecehh. 

Dress: bought at times square. wedding dress utk chinese pnya reception =p

 Bangles: from Diva. 

Ring: at The Curve , The Street! (yg alley kat tgh tgh tu) :p

Cardigan: cardigan kutep tepi jalan je -..-

Long necklace: Ipoh Parade!

 Shawl : saya buat Cala Qisya style. 

Tuto shawl boleh didapati di Youtube. jangan risau. Dengan internet semua ada! ^^

p/s: Kita dekat shah alam ni. balik cuti study week. yippi! cuti one week! windu pemily, windu katil, windu mid, windu sunway windu cemuaa! huahuahua. okey bye nak tido dah. hehehe Salam! xxoo!